or disciple?
usually i need to think twice before i spell that cause it's so close. finally managed to spell "diarrhoea". haha! even so, i need to think twice before i get it right.
Anyway, discipline in what?
All things?
is it okay to be haphazard? order in the midst of mess? I wonder.. Does it always have to be black or white? Can grey also have different shades? Someone's black is another man's white.
in my mind and heart, it's "yes" to the above Qs.
Jesus healed a man on a Sabbath day. That's ok. It is "work" in the sense that something was done. But i guess it boils down to the principle of the Sabbath and what it means to keep it holy. Do we still keep Sabbaths? how strictly? Ministry work is considered work if your salary pay comes from the church or it's "God's work" for those who are paid by corporations, hence, it's ok to "work" on the Sabbath? Ministry work never ends right? Follows you all the way to the home and into your dreams. So, what does Sabbath mean for a person like that?
I wonder.
i was reminded of my waking dream of a house by the sea and spending the day reading on the patio. I wrote about it once in my other xanga blog and i remembered Markus commenting that it was his dream too :) i wonder if that dream is true for him now. Meanwhile, i'm still in PJ with traffic jams and clogged drains. But there are beautiful sunsets still and lovely skies at times and wonderful trees in between the Taman Jaya and Universiti LRT stations. To be content in all circumstances. Dare I go against God's will? it's a humbling experience when i do. Then again, i wonder if those humbling experiences ARE in God's will cause the trial will / should create in me perseverance, character, etc. etc. to make me complete (James 1) :D
ramblings ramblings...
triggered by a humbling experience yesterday for taking an interview lightly and not being prepared. Made me think if indeed this is really what i wanna do. Rat race, corporate race, whatever race is not me. I guess hence, where i am suits me well cause there isn't much of a race here! ;) God knew it better than me cause 11 years ago, i really didn't want to be in the utility. But He's placed me here and it's for the better, that i know, 11 years since.
"Where do i see myself in 10 years time?" Standard interview question which (as i said) i was not prepared for. So i made up something on the spot which clearly was made up and at the end of the day, i felt bad to have wasted the interviewers' time. Unprofessional and goes against what i believe in. I was unprepared because i was doing it just for fun and to see how it'd go. it's a bad reason. Made me think now what kind of impression i had made on these people who are actually in the same division as I am.
Like a slow suicidial poison.
So, where do i see myself in the next 10 years? Colin said, "happily married". haha! Yes, i pray so :) other details?
home-maker? hmm...
Potential senior manager in dunno where? hmm...
librarian? hmm....
administrator? hmm....
reading on the patio with Markus? hmm....
usually i need to think twice before i spell that cause it's so close. finally managed to spell "diarrhoea". haha! even so, i need to think twice before i get it right.
Anyway, discipline in what?
All things?
is it okay to be haphazard? order in the midst of mess? I wonder.. Does it always have to be black or white? Can grey also have different shades? Someone's black is another man's white.
in my mind and heart, it's "yes" to the above Qs.
Jesus healed a man on a Sabbath day. That's ok. It is "work" in the sense that something was done. But i guess it boils down to the principle of the Sabbath and what it means to keep it holy. Do we still keep Sabbaths? how strictly? Ministry work is considered work if your salary pay comes from the church or it's "God's work" for those who are paid by corporations, hence, it's ok to "work" on the Sabbath? Ministry work never ends right? Follows you all the way to the home and into your dreams. So, what does Sabbath mean for a person like that?
I wonder.
i was reminded of my waking dream of a house by the sea and spending the day reading on the patio. I wrote about it once in my other xanga blog and i remembered Markus commenting that it was his dream too :) i wonder if that dream is true for him now. Meanwhile, i'm still in PJ with traffic jams and clogged drains. But there are beautiful sunsets still and lovely skies at times and wonderful trees in between the Taman Jaya and Universiti LRT stations. To be content in all circumstances. Dare I go against God's will? it's a humbling experience when i do. Then again, i wonder if those humbling experiences ARE in God's will cause the trial will / should create in me perseverance, character, etc. etc. to make me complete (James 1) :D
ramblings ramblings...
triggered by a humbling experience yesterday for taking an interview lightly and not being prepared. Made me think if indeed this is really what i wanna do. Rat race, corporate race, whatever race is not me. I guess hence, where i am suits me well cause there isn't much of a race here! ;) God knew it better than me cause 11 years ago, i really didn't want to be in the utility. But He's placed me here and it's for the better, that i know, 11 years since.
"Where do i see myself in 10 years time?" Standard interview question which (as i said) i was not prepared for. So i made up something on the spot which clearly was made up and at the end of the day, i felt bad to have wasted the interviewers' time. Unprofessional and goes against what i believe in. I was unprepared because i was doing it just for fun and to see how it'd go. it's a bad reason. Made me think now what kind of impression i had made on these people who are actually in the same division as I am.
Like a slow suicidial poison.
So, where do i see myself in the next 10 years? Colin said, "happily married". haha! Yes, i pray so :) other details?
home-maker? hmm...
Potential senior manager in dunno where? hmm...
librarian? hmm....
administrator? hmm....
reading on the patio with Markus? hmm....
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